Saturday, February 4, 2012

Is my life a good story?

Confession: I love Star Trek.

Paul and I have been watching The Next Generation over the past two years or so, and I have become REALLY attached to the characters. When you watch a show for several seasons, it starts to feel like the characters are people you actually know and care about. I know, it sounds silly, but it's so true.

So, it's my sad duty to announce that we watched the last two episodes of Star Trek the Next Generation today. The last episode was pretty cool, too, so I'm feeling a little bummed that the adventures are over.

I guess I'm a story junky--I love stories! I can't immerse myself enough in books, video games, movies and story-based television shows. You give me a good story and I will immediately become addicted. I want to know what will happen next and how the oh-so-lovable characters will get themselves out of insane situations. I cannot get enough of good stories.

And here I am at the chapter of my life story that's called, The Last Semester of College. (I debated calling it other names like The Over-Extended Ridiculously Busy Stressed Out Twenty-Six Year Old or The First Time Novel Editor Who Harbors Delusions of Finishing College This Semester Against All Odds...) And this chapter of my life has curious echoes to my last semester in high school. Back then, I remember worrying so much about where to go to college and IF I should and what I should major in and where I would live. Now I have the same kinds of concerns. What should I do after I graduate? What kind of jobs should I apply for? Can I even GET the super awesome jobs that I would like? Is it possible for me to actually have a career in writing and editing?

The questions crowd my mind and chase each other around in unproductive clouds. My brain is a beehive.

WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN AFTER I GRADUATE?

Ah, if we had the answers to our questions, maybe we couldn't really make choices and we'd never grow. I wish it was easier sometimes, but I am happy to be part of a story that changes as it goes along, that is always interesting, and that never gets boring. It may not be fiction, but it's a good story, anyway.